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satisfying day

2008-02-03T23:03:00.000-06:00

suddenly feel like writing

finally i feel that i have a satisfying day, just becuz i am in the practise room for enough hours

I got this email all of a sudden from my teacher last thursday:

Hi Yen-Lin,

Keep me informed on your application to U of NC. Good job in studio class today, and I look forward to hearing it again in music assembly.

I know I had a few words to say about Brahms and memorization today, but I believe that you can do it. You need to practice a lot, it needs to be your priority. Not only Brahms, but also Mozart and Bach. You have great opportunities in front of you with all these upcoming auditions, I would really like to see you do well.

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i must say i am very touched, ..i once thought my teacher has given up on me.
i dont know what i was thinking either, others normally had their pieces memorized like few months before audition and i am now starting to memorize....i almost had to memorize one movement everyday........but fortunately, i have 1.5 movement to go ..... i thought i have good memory but when it comes to piano music...it is more of a muscle memory thing, because everyhing has to be instant...and the hand has to move faster than the brain...so there is nothing much one can do about it except moving the hand for hours until you dont have to think about where you are placing and moving to

i think i was at school at around 2pm..and when i finally felt the pain in my hand and could no longer go on, i looked at my cell and it was 10..that was 8 hours. i allowed myself to go.

very random

2007-11-05T00:22:00.000-06:00

random things happen on random days, i was organizing my pics, finding pics from emails to download them, then i read some old emails, reminded me of you, and then , reminded me of this entry that i wrote in the summer while I was at the New York camp which never got posted:

My night off and then day off..my only day off through whole 6 weeks.

Emotion is such a weird thing
For some reason I thought of u tonite now
Well I alwiz think of u
But rite now I think the feeling is just like missing something in life…I feel the sore in my heart…..i m used to that kinda feeling maybe… once in a while I feel that
Haven’t talked for so long, so I thought to just shoot u an email say hi
It is an emotional moment, if u are in front of me…which will never happen, I think I wont be able to speak out a word, and I don’t think I will see well, and …I will not let u go……if I I could be just irrational for this once

My tears are flowing out, for no very good reason

I cant believe that

For missing u?

sleepless night

2007-09-05T01:39:00.000-06:00

cant sleep, here i am, drinking some red wine...have these 4 bottles of wine since last year, tried not to open them unless there is nothing that i can do

I really need to sleep, quiz tomorrow havent studied, piano lesson tomorrow morning

but i cant...

Lots of things in mind but i m not gonna talk about them....stressed enough

maybe talk about other people then?

today is my bro's bday, didnt get to talk to him...how are you doing? are you fine?

today is the cd release day of kyle, ah dont really know what that is call..but i couldnt go

A teacher of mine got really sick.....you sounded so sick, hope you feel better

a friend of mine just lost his beloved grandpa.....i am so sorry to hear that.......

i m gonna try again

good nite

胖瘦不定

2007-08-14T21:47:00.000-06:00

停留在6/17 父亲节很久了呵呵，父亲生日快到了呢，想想已经两个多月了，这中间当然发生了不少事，我人在boston 和纽约，很多时候都有冲动要写东西，往往太累跑去睡了，其实是有动笔写了一些，只是都没写完，以后会慢慢补上

对了回来后有一件事很重要需要宣布一下

有人说我胖了！我以为我只是黑了

事情是这样的：

我见到这个人就说你看我是不是黑了，他说。。恩，他忽然间想说又说不出来的样字，你是不是。。x 了，我听不到那个字。。。看他嘴型好象是说。。’pang‘ 了！哗晴天霹雳。。。他可能也惊讶所以没把字说出来。。。我乐得很

“可是你不是说那里食物很糟吗？” 他一脸不解

“可能糟所以胖了吧，再加上生活有规律定时吃。。而且我吃很多的，因为一直在饿

”可能只是因为你黑了所以看起来胖了。。

“不是越黑越瘦吗。。

”可能黑看起来。。。健康。。。

哈哈让我胖一下不行哦

然后妈打来，他照惯例一定问我有没有胖，我说有人说我胖了，他说哦真的吗真的吗。。。那多重了！我很懒得站起来，可是他坚持那我就去站在体重机一下，没有我想像中的多。。。结果还是据实报上去。。

“什么？这是瘦了才对吧

”你以前不是 xxx 的吗？“

”你记错了吧。。。而且是三年前了。。。何况那个磅秤一直都怪怪的。。。

真是空喜一场

night off

2007-07-20T21:43:00.000-06:00

cant believe this is the next time i write again after writing about my departure more than one month ago

there were many days that i really felt like writing becuz of things that happened, but i was too tired

maybe i will talk about them later/ fill up the missing days some time later

i have jazz combo concert today, basically my second jazz concert after the first official one in OKC...as expected i was very nervous about it

ppl were so nice and supportive though, that they cheered even before i completed my solo when i did a pattern

right after that we had piano ensemble concert, we did an 8 hand piece ...an arrangement of the prelude in c# minor by rachmaninoff

we played in the big theater, it went well! ppl liked it !

Dr. miyamoto suggested that we met today to go over the student's composition that i will be playing the next day. i learnt so much, not in term of the piece, but how to approach a fresch new piece and get comfortable with it quickly....musicians are smart i think....i mean....musicians like him

it is my night off...

finally

2007-06-17T23:24:00.000-06:00

after all the nightmares, finally i was in the airport, thanks to all the people who helped me/offered to help me before i left for this trip, esp cl. i was really really tired....but still i didnt have time to be tired, the night before, i couldnt sleep becuz i was too tired and anxious, my heartbeat was bitting so fast that i felt like i could just collapse like that anytime

so glad and relieved that i can now sit on my bed, and use my new computer, and write about today

in the airport,my knee started to hurt, cuz of the heavy load

i felt that my whole body was just ...like tofu, while my big left toe was wrapped like a big marshmallow bcuz the nail broke into half and was bleeding inside... except that i was continuing walking...at times i didnt even care to have my glasses, i just had to find the gate number..which was big enough that i could see..i know i need a long long total rest..i stopped in chicago, after finding the gate, it was still early, there were chairs without handle in between...what else could that mean, exactly what i needed, without any hesitation, i put my skoolbag at one end, laid my head on it, legs at the other end, and SLEPT! as if nothing else in the world is more important than that. i had my alarm clock set so that i wouldnt miss my flight

on the plane, i thought of the long-lost him. I travelled around a lot ever since I came to the states. also becuz of him i got to fly to different skools for auditions and interviews. it seems like the only person who have sat with me on a plane was him other than my mom & strangers. I miss him while i was flying. Also becuz boston is where i am going. it is a dramatic place for me. tears and laughter.

it is complicated inside. I m leaving okc for more than two months........but i am too tired to even anticipate what will happen next...

run-thru

2007-06-07T23:35:00.000-06:00

today i had my run-through for the competition, i was very nervous about it, never really played through this whole program straight through, and first time playing in public, surprisingly, the crowd was big this time...didnt really tell a lot of people only to ppl who asked about the competition or people who thought of going to the competition (but it was too far so I dont think they should), but everyone whom I talked to came...so surprised! well except timothy as he had a last minute plan.... and everyone came early!!! I was so impressed..thank you all for the support !!

Comments/review:

a little bit tense in hands overall esp LH, affect LH accompaniment in Mozart

randomness

2007-06-05T01:14:00.000-06:00

went to cafeteria for dinner

met this girl, whom i saw in the afternoon at lunch but we didnt talk

this time i happened to sit next to her, she introduced herself, she is stacey

a guy sitting opposite to her,... i think his name is ..justin, not sure

stacey is probably one of the most interesting ppl i ever met in my life, she is a bassist..."where are you from" is probably the most difficult question for her because she is from everywhere, born somewhere, grew up in many different places, been to over 40 countries...her favourite is africa though

"what made you choose the bass?"

in england, everyone signed up for an instrument, i signed up for flute, later someone called and told me that 20 ppl signed up the class is full and they put me in double bass, i have no idea what that is...when i went and saw that instru..i cried and told my mom..mom, i dont wanna learn that thing........but later somehow i just felt in love with it (love is just sometthing so interesting isnt it), and now i hate the flute (so is hatred)

the guy ...omg, he studies in hawaii-manoa, a school that i almost went, the school gave me a really really good offer, i wanted to study with this pianist who does very interesting chinese music with piano and he is into contemporary music which is what i really like...忽然一丝的遗憾，i kept asking him about how the school is like, the environment....and of course about that pianist whom I almost study with, he helped me so much hoping that i would go..

stacey she is now studying in northwestern even though she got the chance to study in curtis (but she still goes to curtis every summer to study with her favourite bass teacher there), what a great music school, she said her teacher is this very young famous guy from china (25 years old)...so she is in chicago...reminded me about this school in illinois that I almost went, they gave me a really really good offer too, the piano professor whom I wanted to study with helped me so much as well.....

so these two people were here today to remind me about the two schools that I almost went instead of here OKC?

i came back at about 10:30, suddenly i decided to go for a swim, i told myself that i'll have to feel the water before i leave oklahoma city this summer, because i just saw them changing the water few days ago, and by the time i come back..the weather may be bad again, so i have to do that before i leave..择日不如撞日， after finding out that they close at 11pm, i basically ran there after putting on my swimming costume...havent swum for so long..it felt good......then i went into the jacuzzi...my first time here in cokesbury after almost a year can u imagine that!!!! well they just got it fixed not long ago actually.thank you...it felt good...i wish some people were here with me when i was in the jacuzzi hot tub..it should be fun to chat while in there ..i met 3 other ppl, one guy from tulsa..and two other girls...he thought i was a dance major...interesting...he wasnt the first who thought i was a dance major....well i wish

bass

2007-06-04T00:52:00.000-06:00

nothing much today

I had my piano lesson today, after that i felt that i couldnt really sit down and practise

highlight is probably the meeting with timothy kok, we had quite a long talk and we touched on things that we never did before, surprisingly. He is leaving OCU, another person is leaving! it is kinda sad, reminded me of the professor who is leaving OKCU and not coming back next semester, I was very sad about that, although i know i should be very happy for him...that kind of 矛盾 always happens in life isnt it...same thing happened to him, he got a better offer...congratulations! we said we will meet again before he/we leave(s)...I am leaving at about the same time for boston and NY...funny that we couldnt stop 'blaming' how busy each other was

and then i returned joseph's call. i got his msg saying that he was back from india. He asked if i had time this evening, it would be the last day of jam session in rococo for this month...i was however more interested in the bass convention thing...basically all the great and famous bass players from all around the world will be gathering here at OCU just because it so happen that this year ISB is held here right at OCU...i met so many people from diff countries these days in the school, esp down there in the practice rooms area...it is really a big thing, wish more ppl knew about it, there are concerts whole day everyday this week from morning to night in different places:
http://www.okcu.edu/news/news_details.asp?article_id=13936
http://www.okcu.edu/news/news_details.asp?article_id=13934

and because of this convention, rococo will have jam session everyday starting from today...i decided to go check out a little bit....too bad the bass people came late, and i decided to leave before knowing if they were gonna go out and play or not...

3M - Meditation, Mozart, Magic

2007-06-03T23:12:00.000-06:00

today i woke up early, at 7:58am. My yoga teacher was very kind that she offered to pick me up to her house from my apartment to her house for group meditation. I had three meditation sittings about two weekends ago, when all these great masters came over from dallas, and so she thought I should start going to group meditation to not waste the sittings.

Ok so we started off with some cleaning before we started the actual meditation.

There was this Indian doctor sitting opposite to me..

so people all left, except me, this other lady, my teacher and this indian doctor, my teacher said she wants to show us a film next sunday, then this indian doctor said he would like to talk about some things next sunday, to share his feelings and experiences with meditation, he thinks some people still dont get it, suddenly he pointed at me, and said like you and the lady next to you, i feel something is going on....i am not talking about her, and her.. ( he was pointing at the seats where two other people sat), but her and this person next to her ( he was pointing at me and the seat beside me)..something is blocking u, u have no idea, there were many questions....i was a little bit surprised, I was just writing on the notepad (everyone got to write on our little note book after each group meditation)...I wrote: this is my first group meditation, dont know why so many things that i didnt expect at all just entered my mind... (Was that a subconscious thing)...obviously i was being very honest with myself when i wrote that instead of saying how i did achieve the state and felt the 'nothing'...now that this doctor was saying that...i have nothing to say of course. My teacher said...yes it is hard isnt it, yes I think "it is hard to be simple,"...I have always wanted a simpler life...

Now that I am playing Mozart, it is soo difficult because it is very simple...it should sound simple at least (no matter how difficult it actually is)...the notes are so simple that a tiny little mistake will throw u off

Then I met with my Japanese teacher for lunch. We decided to do hot pot, i learnt a whole bunch of stuff today,

i learnt everything that i saw:
rice, mee, fish, vege, squid, (and I remember water from risa), soup, clam, shrimp....bag, sun, phone, money (okane)

Review:
Please go ahead and eat
how much is this/that
this is (very) yummy/tasty/delicious
this is fun
that was (very) fun

new phrases/ sentences:
I like rice
I like mee...etc...I learn how to connect them when I am liking more than one thing...so I like rice, fish, vege, shrimp, mee, and soup
Do you like fish?
I am still hungry
Are you full
not really/ so so (mama)
drink it
there is still mee inside
no thanks = no thats enough (kekkoudesu)
yes please (um, Onegai shimasu)
I am happy (shiawase) today

A joke:
I asked him why he msg me "yokatta" that day after i answered sth, wasnt that "afternoon"? Oh maybe he wanted to help me to review the word, but how did he know that I learnt 'afternoon' since I dont remember telling him that ..he was like...what? OH....the truth is...afternoon should be yuugata...uhuh! haha i mixed them up, but no one really told me what yokatta was before, good that i asked..they were so similar anyway

Something funny:
I passed him a stack of napkins, and he wrote some Japanese words on the napkins so that I can remember them better, I got them back...I flip and flip..weird..where is the one with words (there was one that we wrote on)..he said, "Magic" I thought he was kidding, so I kept flipping them, and then he said: no I am serious it was magic!" I looked at him and said: "U ..know magic?"

"Yeah I learnt it before"
"Oh WOW"
"But..I forgot how to bring it back.."
"WhAT?"
"I am sorry I forgot how to..." and he didnt look like he was joking because he seemed a little bit embarrassed
"u remember how to make something disappear but u forgot how to get it back? interesting..." I have to try hard not to laugh
"Next time I will show you some more magic"....

.."But where is it?" I am still very concerned about missing napkin
We started to look around

Finally, I found it on the floor under his chair !.!>!>

2007-05-31T21:12:00.000-06:00

coming...

kanashimi

2007-05-30T22:37:00.000-06:00

i promised myself to sleep early today, cuz tomorrow is so important for me, cant explain why now, i have to do my best for the lesson tomorrow. BUT something came up, i cant sleep, thats why i am here

u r leaving, i know that, leaving for good? r u kidding? ....u like to joke so much, why isnt this a joke this time?

bad bad timing

(ok because I cant sleep, and it is a waste of time anyway I decide to go to school now even though it is probably close now)

Before I walked out the gate, I figured that I forgot to bring my wallet...do i even need that? yes because i would need my gate card to come back in, so I went back home and came out again. This time I bumped into the same Japanese friend who was running. He asked where I was going I said to school, he offered to walk me to music school. Even though I wanted to walk alone and I felt that this may not be a good time to meet/talk with people I didn’t say no, that would be rude….but then later on maybe he could sense something, probably because I was very different and didn’t really talk, he said if I felt like walking alone he could leave me alone

“I just feel sad cuz one of my friends is leaving, and I just knew about it”

“Sorry I am so different today”

I don’t really remember what I said, just remember that I did most of the talking, I guess it was sth like talking to myself, I don’t even know if he understood what I said

“Do you ever feel sad?” Suddenly I was curious, cuz a person like him, who has almost the same routine everyday, probably does pretty much the same thing everyday,..just a very disciplined life in short, probably meeting the same people everyday…..maybe a simple life like this has very little ups and down

“Of course” (I knew of course he must have..and I knew it was a stupid question even before I asked)

“Like today, I didn’t do as well as I wanted to in my exam…” (Oh it was about self achievement…wonder how about other thigns like r’ship with people or emotions…)

The school was not open I decided to turn back, I thought ..ok why not make full use of the time and make myself happier, so I started to ask ok whats the word for the day, he looked around and said, how about light, while he pointed at the lamp-post on top of us (oh…ok sure…never expected that). Then I remembered how he told me how to say “how much is this” earlier in a restaurant, So I said in Japanese, “this is light”…He pointed at another lamp post which is further, and said “that is light”…Oh so “XXX means that…”….

Then we learnt “we are walking” and stupid things like “I am human”, and gradually come into a conversation in Japanese:

”Oh of course you are”
“and …You are human too”
“yeah you are right”
“Really? I am rite?”
“yes…”
………
……….
…………

We walked past the gate, now by the pool, suddenly I asked in English: How do you say I am sad?

“Watashi wa kanashi desu”

He asked: “Nande?”

I said, “because you are leaving. How do you say that?”…

Ok, so:

To you, dear friend:
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Kon ya wa (tonight)
Watashi wa Kanashi desu ( I am sad)
Nazenaraba (because)
Anata wa Kae-tte shimau (You are leaving)
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I feel that I should say something to him too, cuz he is a little bit sad too

So I requested to learn this;

Kanashima naide (Don’t be sad)
Kondo wa kitto umaku ikimasu (You will do well next time)
Ganbatte!!! (I added this)

“Hontouni Arigatou” (thank you so much)

“Dou itashimashite” (You’re welcome)

“Anata kara takusan manabimashita ( I learnt a lot from you)

“Hontouni Arigatou”

“Dou itashimashite”

“Watashi wa kaerimasu” (I am going back)

“Wastashi wa Nemurimasu” (I am going back to sleep)

“Oyasumi”

“Oyasumi”

a star

2007-05-29T22:39:00.000-06:00

Today, I was supposed to meet with my piano student earlier in the afternoon. She (and maybe her dad) became my first student(s) here in Oklahoma and today would be the first piano lesson I gave in OKC so I was pretty excited about it. I had like 7 students in Wisconsin but I didn’t really teach in my first year here. His dad called me last minute and said that his daughter had to take an exam and asked if we could do later in the evening… I went to school, bumped into Satoshi, whom I just met last Friday, he was a new graduate student from Japan. He knew I just started to learn Japanese. He asked how’s my learning going? I said, oh I just learnt .."night" yesterday. He said, Yuugata! "What?" "it means afternoon" "oh thank you, I have to go…."

Later I came out from the music school, wanted to go back for food, bumped into him again, same place, he was outside the library. I saw so many ppl walking in and out from the cafeteria so I went in to check out. Wow there was food right OUTSIDE the cafeteria (tables were set up and it was very crowded), I asked one of the people who served food there what was that about , she said...just free food...so I thought to inform satoshi about that since he was telling me that he couldnt cook in the uni dorm at all, he wasnt outside the library, so i went into the library and grabbed him...he told me..."hon" (=books) when we walked past the bookshelf. ok so today i learnt two words

进去不久却看见一个人在拉小提琴，在cafeteria 别人的餐桌旁拉小提琴？这个人是怎么回事，在这么吵的状况下还拉得那么开心。我门拿了食物后选了个位置，我一直往那里看，忽然间想到，他该不是那个我一直想认识的。。。kyle 吧，第一次听到她是从贝的口中，她说他有一个朋友，跟她合作过，很爱玩即兴，觉得我们有相同的兴趣应该约出来介绍我认识。。听了关于他好多东西，我也一直都想找个小提琴家合作一些现代的音乐，编曲或即兴之类。。。终于有一天在一个作曲家的发表会上看到他演奏，看到节目表上写kyle, 那整个演奏会很震撼，他的表演更是其中一个很大的贡献。。演奏会完毕我想过去道贺，不知道怎么的我跟作曲家与其他的主要的表演者道贺了就是没有机会跟他说话，好像是太多人走去找他而我又赶时间。今天，我忽然觉得现在这个人有可能是他，身形很象，不知道哪来的胆子在他拉完一曲后，我走过去，他一转过身看到我就很热情的拥着，我想他大概是把我误以为是一个他认识却不记得的fans。因为我很肯定他不认识我，所以我有点被吓到，我说。。。excuse me ..r u。。 kyle? "YES"..."OH I have heard so much about you....." "..........." "................".................. "oh thank you so much for approaching me, where do you sit let me come play for you.."结果他真的走向我门那一桌，我们刚好坐在角落，桌与桌之间的空间小到不行，他就在那个很狭小的缝里拉起来，我还没那么近距离看一个人拉过琴，基本上整个乐器就在我眼睛旁边没有几公分的距离，看着怕演奏者会不自在，不看也不是，一曲后又一曲，近距离看只觉得技巧很吓人，而且他实在是太自然了，纵使那么靠近观众，然后他蹲下来跟我与satoshi 说话，因为他站的位置小到没办法放张椅子...他听到satoshi 从日本来就说什么上过日本的哪一个电视台什么的，惊叹的表情忽然间在satoshi 的脸上出现，后来他才告诉我说那是日本最大的电视台。。。更让我惊讶的是，我还以为他还搞不太清楚马来西亚在哪里的时候，他说他到过那里好多次了。。我看他飞吗来西亚的次数比我还多。。他说他被邀请表演给我门的苏丹（就是我们国家宫廷里的皇族）。。这。。。感觉上我门就象看到大明星一样，可是他一点架子都没有，还拿出卡片，我门请他签名，我问他有没有在什么地方表演他说每个星期四在kamps 希望我门有时间可以去看看，后来我准备跟satoshi 离开他刚好走过来跟我说话，我坐回去，聊了好一阵子，聊到一半又坐着拉了一首啊拉伯乐曲，说道我以前编过一个马来西亚民谣给以前我在wisconsin-madison 的乐团他忽然见拉起我门最有名的一个民谣还才唱起来。。。rasa sayang eh, 我刚感冒好没什么声音可是还是跟着一起唱了一点。。天啊他真的什么都会也。。他也很友善，知道我暑假要到boston 和纽约去参加一些音乐活动，他说走前可以 get together，我说贝之前有想过找他可是觉得他应该很忙，到处飞到处演奏，他说是没错可是呆在oklahoma 的时间也不少。。。哦对了聊到一半我看到了一个象我门学校president的人站起来准备离开，我说，哦that is our president...他说哦have u met Tom? " I ...", 他忽然间就这样子喊‘tom!。。” 他没有听到继续走，我还来不及阻止kyle 他又再叫了一下，他回头，我吓到， kyle 带我走过去介绍说"have u met yl?" president 也很友善跟我握手说话， "she is a pianist."..' Oh I think I have seen you before...i saw you play.." 他想不起来哪一次，我想可能他大概听kyle说我弹琴就想到可能有见过我。。。’very talented.." 走前他有些激动地搭着kyle 对我说: 不管别人认不认同, kyle is the best student OCU ever produced....

oops, i almost forgot about my student because of all that, i better left..。。

what an interesting day today, it was like meeting a star...我比较可以理解歌迷疯狂于偶像的感觉了，i hardly felt that kinda excitement on many things (or people) that many people might be crazy about, but i think when it comes to musicians whom I like i would be so excited to meet and talk with them

咖啡

2007-05-28T21:39:00.000-06:00

i thought i would have a long intro. about blog, but no, no intro this time

今天心血来潮拿出咖啡色的外套，穿上出门，手插口袋，摸到一个感觉好熟习毛毛的东西，忽然间很高兴，觉得可能是它回来了，果然是我咖啡色绑头发用的圈圈没错。好久不见，你回来了，原来你在这里，一定是我之前因为穿上咖啡色外套所以配上了咖啡色发圈... 我在等我的手表。。学生证。。你门什么时候回来

今天第一次在oklahoma 煮给那么多人吃

今天回家9点半，本来要练琴，结果遇到一个小学朋友，聊得正起劲，我说我要去练琴，就讲到钢琴这乐器，然后他说他想学爵士，从那时候起就停不下来，讲到jazz club....jazz in m'sia..in australia.......后来又被问我毕业后要干嘛，最近好多人问。。。。最后我说我对business 也有兴趣，在马来西亚开个爵士餐厅 (应该是前所未有）？（什么？？？没有啦，只是想到吃就想到这个。。。）

然后聊完，哦11点了，还要去吗，觉得还是不行，忽然间很坚决的穿上咖啡外套就出门了

经过我一个japanese conversation partner 的apartment, 想到我该回个电话约时间，说好每个星期见一次，这几天他可以的时间我刚好都不行，今天临时决定要煮所以又不行，觉得不好意思还是道个谦好了，站在他的窗外，记得他说过这是我的APARTMENT，你随时有事拿东西丢我窗口叫我，看到他灯还亮，想说这个时候他不是应该在跑步吗，我找不到什么东西丢，打了通电话，说我就在你家门外要不要出来谈，他刚好要出去跑步，请我等一下，我向泳池走去，风迎面吹来，真不错，很舒服，忘了自己还在感冒，他出来我向他道歉并交代好后就说你可以开始跑了，结果我们用走的向音乐馆走去，他说他还有很多时间可以跑没关系，我说你真的每天都一定要跑吗？一天不跑不行？他说不行，一定要，他从8岁就开始MARTIAL ARTS, 从那时候起就好像注定似的，离不开，我说可是跑步又不是MARTIAL ARTS,
他一本正经的说，it is like the same, but i do it in my mind when i am running, it is hard to explain..i cannot stop, it makes me feel good, makes me confident..
我： i wish i can be like u, that kind of discipline, that kind of voice in mind that tells u that u cannot stop, u have to, u must...（i was thinking about practising obviously) how sad, i always need to have someone pushing me (i was thinking about how i still needed my teacher to push me..), but... u shouldnt be fear of stopping anything
他： i feel confident from the training ..so i cant stop, but i think u have the confidence..
我：。。。。(really? am I a confident person? what makes u think that)
...............
我：ok i have to learn a word everytime
他：what do you want to learn,
我: what about ...night?
他：哦。。yoru
觉得有点冷，我就用日语说‘冷’，问他说要怎么说， it is cold here....

this meeting is good, i learnt sth, it is saving both our time, because we both were walking for our own purpose, i was walking towards practise room, he was walking towards his "running track"

Motivation for the day:

他每天一定要跑步的定力，加强了我每天也要练琴的定力, so i did, which brings today to an end

good nite

back to two days ago

2007-05-28T00:24:00.000-06:00

5/25 (friday)
morning, I woke up early, I had to be in a film, our school is making a feature film this summer. The director of this feature film talked to me in the film festival at OCU earlier this semester, trying to promote this film class in which we not only can get credits but we can become part of the film crew. That time he probably didnt know I was participating in the film festival, he just knew I was a pianist. Some time later, we met in the music school, he told me that he liked the documentary that I made that was shown in the film fest and then he asked me if I could be the organist in one of the scenes of this feature film.

So today was the day. There was a big delay...I know how film works when I was in a film production class in Wisconsin...so I could kinda understand..u just had to spend so much time on everything...

I met this Japanese student called Satoshi..Interesting, I was complaining about not seeing a lot of Japanese students here at OKCU because I really wanted to learn Japanese, I even requested for a Japanese roommate before I moved in here, they told me that there arent a lot of japanese students in this school...but lately, it just so happened that I met a lot of Japanese, or I should say, got to know a lot of them better....one just left (yoshi)..

even though it took much time than expected, good thing was that they basically drove me everywhere with that little golf car (sorry dont know what that should be called, but it just reminded me of the golf cars people use to travel around the golf field), and I got to join them for lunch..it was a good one! and then they drove me back even though it was such a short distance

Later bei came and brought me whole bunch medicine and even some chinese herbs and tea...that was sweet of her..she is leaving too in couple days

evening, I had dinner in ken's place..zeus was the cook! i heard he was good so i thought i should really go try it ....wow a lot of people, kinda surprised, stella made me ginger tea for me to help me recover, that was very kind of her, people were shocked by my 'sexy' voice..

Then we went to watched "Pirates". That night was the first showing..I think this was my first time ever going for 首映，basically it means more people= more cars= no parking= have to go early and..more expensive . we were the last car who reached, it was pretty full, we ended up have to sit separately from the group . I love the movie. It got pretty cold, I kept coughing

5/27 （Sun)

I didnt go to dallas today, mainly because I wasnt feeling well and it was probably not suitable for me to have a long trip, plus I wouldnt be able to eat all the good food....esp seafood!!! ah..

I had lunch with zeus instead, he is leaving monday! I promised to treat him before he left because he did me a great favor by bringing my computer all the way to washington to see if it can be saved...my computer was sick..since it was hard to find a time that works for him, I decided to cancel my plan of going to church and the meeting with my japanese conversation partner...he was late though!!! haha but it was ok, he was the 'big person' of the day..we went to a jazz restaurant, he told me that he liked jazz so i thought i should bring him to the place before he leaves here, plus that is the only place that has live jazz music in sunday afternoon..Issei, shy, hal who were jazz musicians were all there either playing or hanging out, kinda surprised, they came talk to me one by one..was a little bit surprised cuz shy never really came talk to me before i think, and he said they would play ballad because i liked it as i mentioned in facebook....they played "someday my prince will come", my favourite tune...reminded me of my jazz teacher, it so happened that everytime I went to see my teacher play he would play this tune

after that we went to check out paseo, a place I heard from yaniv who highly recommended it, never been there, zeus did though, i was telling him about places that he had to go before leaving OK, later he found out that he had been there before, it so happened that they have art festival today, so i thought this might be the good time to take a look, though i know i should be back to school to practise. It was basically like a street...with a lot of booths outside...we tested some wine in the booth that offers wine testing.....cant imagine that i felt a little bit headache later even just a tiny bit....he was like...what? haha

热爱耳环的我买了一对耳环，因为有点损伤所以半价，嘻

晚上，发生了一件非常突然的事，近乎一年了，没想到我竟然得到了个答案，解释与交代，解开了长久以来的疑惑与不解，totally unexpected, 世事难料

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